I'm Legal!!

So yesterday I turned 21! Pretty cool huh? I guess so! People all day kept telling me that I was legal. My response...legal to do what? Even if I wanted to drink I wouldn't. That stuff is so nasty and the smell makes me sick to my stomach! ewww!

So last night my roommate Lisa and a friend of ours Jenn, we went to Delafield and ate at Applebee's to celebrate the awesomeness of it all. I must say it felt really cool do to that. It was just a bunch of college girls out for a night to have fun. I felt like an actual adult. I can't really explain the feeling...its just there. So we were there and they told the people that worked there that it was my birthday and they sang happy birthday to me...well, it was more like shouted, but thats ok. It was still cool. After Applebee's we went to Best Buy to look around for a few minutes, then we went to Cold Stone and got ice cream and came back here. I have to say that my birthday this year topped my birthday from the last two college years by far. Last year nobody remembered my birthday at all and it was really sad. And the year before was pretty good, but this year was definitely the best. I think its because my two good friends on campus spent it with me! =) Thanks guys for an awesome birthday!!

New Everything

So today I decided that I was sick and tired of my old blog. I didn't like the setup, the color, or the title. So today I decided to change it. I know its really pink, but I like pink and I guess I was in a pink mood at the time I recreated it. I hope you all like it. You can leave me a post letting me know what you think.

So I changed the title of my blog to Only Trust Him. Why? Well that is what God has been teaching me lately, to only trust HIM! I have been having a hard struggle with the fact that I am still single. Tomorrow I turn 21 and have never had a boyfriend. Meanwhile all of my friends are either dating or starting to date. Its quite discouraging to me sometimes. I really have a desire to date and to get married and yet nothing is happening. Nothing has ever happened. So my since high school I have been trying to find "Mr. Right" on my own, and to be quite honest it hasn't worked. So here I am a second semester freshman in college (I should be a Jr.) and no boyfriend and no prospects. So I am thinking well guess I need to go and find a guy. Not how it works people. I have been reading this book called "Lady in Waiting". This book is talking about developing your love relationships. Not your love relationships with that specail someone, but with God and others. I have gotten through two chapters Lady of Faith and Lady of...(I can't remember the name of it!). Well anyways in the book they pointed out that the best time to serve God and grow closer to Him is during your single years. Isn't that the truth? I would love to think that when I get married I am going to serve God and grow closer to Him than I am now, but I would be fooling myself. Married people are so busy! They hardly have time for themselves! I need to be growing closer to Him! Plus finding the perfect guy isn't what is going to make me happy in life. First off there is no "perfect guy" and second even if there was he won't bring the joy and fulfillment I need. Only Christ can! I found a quote in this book that I really like. "No one, not even the person that you will someday marry will make you happy- only Christ can." If you try to convince yourself otherwise, you are going to be in for a big suprise. Only God brings the joy and the fulfillment that you can ever need or want.

As for trusting God on this issue, I am going to be honest and say that I am afraid that there might not be somewhere out there for me. I am afraid that if I put my total and complete trust in God that I am going to find out that there is no "special someone for me". Well if there isn't who cares right? Christ is what is going to make me happy! Why is it so hard for us to trust God on these issues? Because our plan doesn't go with His plan and we don't want our plan to have to change! But God knows what is best for our lives does He not? (Please realize that I am "preaching" to myself as well here). They why do we think we know best?

So the question I have to ask myself everyday is this, where is my focus today? God or Guys? Thats what it all really boils down to. If I have my focus on God, I notice that my day tends to go a lot easier and that I don't think so much about dating and marriage and the fact that I am not dating. But if my focus is on guys, I notice that I struggle every minute of the day with the fact that I am still single. So why not keep my focus on what really matters, God, and what doesn't really matter, guys? Just something to think about.

Randomness

So I was getting all over my roommate cause people don't update their blogs, when I myself don't even update mine. What kind of person does that? (Please don't answer that). So life is going well. I am reading a book by C.J. Mahaney called "Humility: True Greatness". Its a great book. I haven't gotten to far into it, but I would recommend it to anyone. One of the things that caught my attention was Isaiah 66:2. He talks about how Humility draws Gods gaze. One of my favorite quotes in the book is this "The person who is humble is the one who draws God's attention, and in this sense, drawing His attention means also attracting His grace - His unmerrited kindness." God wants us to be humble. This is an area that I feel I really need to work on. Sometimes I think that I don't have the humility that I should. I need to be humble enough to ask God for His help. So many times I want to do it myself because of my stupid pride, but learn that I can't. This last week that happened to me. I wasn't trusting God as I should and God brought me to the point were I broke down and had to beg for His help and His strength because I can't do it on my own! And when you give it over to God amazing things happen that you never thought possible and you think to yourself "Why didn't I give this to God earlier instead of trying to do it on my own? It would have been a whole lot easier had I done it His way the first time. Just somethings to think about.

So yesterday the coolest thing happened to me. There was this skirt at WallyWorld that I was secretly wanting but didn't have to 20 dollars to pay for it. I decided to wait and see if it went on sale. Everytime I went to Walmart it was never on sale. So on Tuesday night my really nice jean skirt got a rip in it. I don't think its fixable. I was so devestated. I had no idea what I was going to do for a jean skirt. So last night I went to Walmart and I decided to see if that jean skirt I have been wanting was on sale. I couldn't find it. So I kept searching and I found it on the sale rack for 7 dollars! 7 dollars! Isn't God amazing?? He knew that I was going to need that jean skirt and He knew that I couldn't afford 20 dollars for it, so He timed it just perfectly that it would be on sale when I needed it! I was so excited to say the least!

So I have to do my freshman platform for my major in like 6 weeks and I am starting to get worried to say the least. I don't know why I am. I guess its that whole "I can do it myself without God" thing, but I can't. I am trying to teach myself that I can only do it with God's help. And isn't that the truth. I have so much to do for this recital and I can't do it without His help. And then on top of that I have to play the cello a week from Sunday at church. Its not sounding to bad I guess, but I can definitely tell you that violin is what I should stick with.

Well I think thats all for now folks. Happy November and stay warm. Only 17 days till Thanksgiving break! We can all make! I know we can! So until lata...

So we had missions conference here at MBBC this week. It was really really good. I couldn't believe how many mission boards we had here and stuff. It was really cool. Listening to all the missionaries tell about their needs too was cool as well. There is such a big mission field and I couldn't help but wonder if God was tugging on my heart to go to one of those places. I could definitely use my music on the mission field somewhere. I will go where ever God wants me, I just don't know where that will be.

School is going well. I have to go practice my violin tonight. Thats going to be fun. =) I have to have a song completely learned and memorized by the 21st of November. I can do it!! Other than that all is good. I am trying to learn many new instruments, one being the cello. Its ok...i guess...but I def. shouldn't quit my day job. Ask my roommate Lisa...she'll tell ya all about it!

Ok, so today I have been thinking about a lot of things. Sometimes I wonder why I am the way I am. I like to have fun, but sometimes I wonder if I can be to loud at times. I never thought I was too loud at Bob Jones. My friends didn't think so either. While I was there I was carefree (in a sense) and all this stuff and it was great. But now...I really wonder. Sometimes I act the same way here, and its not the same as it was at Bob Jones. Does this show that I am immature? I mean, I LOVE to have fun. At Bob Jones I would get crazy excited at soccer and basketball games. I would cheer for all I was worth for poor Omega. (ahhh...I miss them) But here, I'm not like that. I try to be, and it doesn't work. Is it just me? Have I changed so much that when I actually do try to have fun, I start to feel weird inside? Or is it something else? I really wish I knew. This post is really sappy or something...but I seriously wonder...what's going on with me?

Random Thoughts

Wow...I can't believe how long its been since I posted. Its been a very long time, and yet I feel as though it hasn't been that long at all. I guess school will do that to you. Between practicing, studying and a little bit of a social life, though not much of one, I am extremely busy! Such is the life of a college student I guess.

The other day I was in front of Day Dorm and I did a nice face plant on the sidewalk and sprained my foot very badly. Needless to say I learned that crutches and college don't mix to well. Thankfully today though I didn't have to use the crutches to get around. That was a blessing, let me tell you.

I spent my day today running the clock for volleyball games. I was there for like four hours! Why? I have no idea...they needed help and I offered. I was there for a REALLY long time. But it was fun. I was really rooting for the teams from Illinois. I'm not sure that rooting for teams is allowed as a clock keeper, I think I am supposed to be nuetral, but I couldn't help it. The Illinois side in me was coming out.

On a side note, I just want to say that I have super cool roommates. Anybody that can live with me for this long and can still be sane has got to get some praise cause thats pretty impressive. Also impressive is the fact that they haven't banished or killed me yet! They are completely and utterly awesome. I am so thankful that the Lord allowed us to be together. We really are a great room! =)

On yet another side note, I am really glad to be here at Maranatha. I really liked BJ, don't get me wrong, but I am so much happier here. I'm not sure why God planned for me to be at BJ for two years, then have me switch, but that was a part of His plan. I am just thankful that I am here. My heart has always been here...my parents dream was for me to graduate from BJ. Thats why I didn't start out here in the first place. I made awesome friends while there, and I miss them all very very much, but I am here reaquanting with old friends and making new. Its awesome.

I just want to end this post with a quote that I think is super awesome.

"A girl should be so lost in God, that a guy has to search God to find her" How true is that huh? If a girl is lost in God, the guy that finds her will be the kind of guy that she wants and that will truly serve God. I need to learn this and apply it to my life. It is so easy to get caught up in what guy is cute and what guy isn't. Does that matter? NO! What matters is his walk and relationship with God, because if thats in the right place, then when it comes to those important decisions in life he will do whats right. I need a guy like that, not a guy that I like for looks. Make sense? I hope so! If not...e-mail me at violinprincess21@gmail.com...and we can talk it out!

State Street

This past Friday I had the priviledge and the opportunity to go to State Street in Madison Wisconsin. If I remember what I heard correctly, State Street is the main street that runs through the Univserity of Wisconsin in Madison.

I went to state street for my society. What we do at state street, is we pair up into groups of 2-3 (its nice to have a guy along just in case) and we walk up and down the streets handing out tracks and witnessing to people. I am going to tell you right now, State Street was like nothing I had ever seen before. It was amazing! Just the opportunity to go and share the gospel was the amazing part.

Not only was State Street amazing, but it was also sad. As my roommate and I walked around (Daniel Brier was with us for a while as well) all I saw were kids my age getting drunk. Kids my age smoking. Kids my age doing things that kids my age should never do. I cannot tell you how many houses I passed with people drinking inside. It was so sad! These people were wasting their lives! And why? Just so they could get high for a little while. I wanted to ask why drinking was so cool!

My roommate and I passed a couple of guys walking to a frat party. Both had a couple of cases of beer. They looked like they had just won the million dollar "prize" and that they were off to have a good time. I was so sad when I saw that.

State Street is such a mission field. There are so many people there that need the Lord. This last Friday definitly put into perspective the verse "The harvest truly is great, but the Laborers are few". The harvest at State Street is HUGE! There are so many people there that need the Lord. Please pray for State Street. We could use your prayers. And if you are a MBBC student and you have never gone to State Street before I would recommend that you come out at least once. It will change your perspective on life and on spiritual things.

Decisions

Have you ever had a really hard decision to make? I have had plenty, let me tell you, but the recent, most hardest (is that proper English?) on that I have to make is where I am going to go to church. I have two choices, Calvary in Watertown, and then another Chuch that is about an hour away. I could use my music and stuff at Calvary, but at the other chuch I could be used in like every department...literally. I really need the Lord's direction on this. I have mixed emotions about going to both. I have no idea where to go. I love Calvary so much. Pastor Loggans is really good and I know a lot of people there. But this other church needs help so much. Where do I go? I need the Lord on this one.

Change

Here I am at Maranatha. Who would of thought that the change would be so nice?? Its kinda weird though. MBBC is different on some of the rules...and sometimes I feel like I am breaking rules when I am not.

We had orchestra today. I got a position that I really didn't expect at all. It was very nice. Classes are good. I am looking forward to all of them. I think I am going to like History of Civ and Aural Skills the best.

The food here is soooo good. Much better than the other food we had at school. That stuff was GROSS! but don't tell them that...i don't want them mad at me!

Well today mom and dad took off with Nathan to head to BJ. It was sad. I am going to miss being there. But I am super excited about going to MBBC though. I have been looking forward to this for a long time. I am leaving tomorrow afternoon to go to Watertown. Am staying the night with Betsy then getting all settled in on Friday.

I am trying to figure out my major and my minor. I know I want to do something with Music and Early Childhood ed...but i don't know which one will be the major and which one the minor. I guess I'll figure that otut soon enough....

Their Hitched!!!

So I went to the wedding today and it was beautiful! Laura looked so pretty! She and her husband wrote their own vows, which I found very cute. (My dad says that its not cute...cute isn't the right word according to him. So if you're like my dad, you can call it "romantic". Thats the word I used to make him feel better)

Some friends of mine played the actual ceremony. They did a great job, which of course I expected. My family played the reception. That was fun, for the most part. It was kind of hard to play while people were eating food in front of me. Mostly in part because I hadn't really eaten anything all day, and it was 5 o'clock and my stomach was definitly growling.

The wedding ceremony by the way, was perfect. Not to short, and def. not to long. They presented the Gospel well, which was cool, because the bride's extended family isn't saved. Hopefully the Gospel reached one of them. So the happy couple are spending the night in Springfield tonight, and then tomorrow are heading towards Colorado for a week to spend some time at a nice little resort.

By the way, this is off topic, remind me to never again to share my dreams with my little brother. He may end up shooting them down and stomping them to bits. Just thought I'd get that out.

So I leave for Maranatha on Thursday. I am going to spend the night at Betsy's house on Thursday night and while I am there we are going to make a plan of action as to what my major/minor is going to be. I know I want to be in Music, and early childhood ed. The thing we have to figure out is which is going to be my major, and which is going to be my minor. Since both of those things can be either, thats gonna be a hard decision.

Then I am going to go do what I need to do as a Freshman on Friday, and I am going to have the help of my good friend Ruthann and Betsy as well. I am really looking forward to it.

Well folks, I think I am done babbling for now! See ya'll later!

My lovely day

So today was a good day, all except for this morning. My mom came in before 7 and woke me up. Why? I don't know. She had something she wanted me to do before I went babysitting at 8:30. I think she thought the 10 minute job would take me an hour or something. I could have totally slept till 7:30. But none the less she woke me up before 7. (For the record, I haven't slept past 7 since like May. Thats a record for me!)

After I finished what my mom wanted me to do, I went to babysit 2 little girls from my church. I got to their house and as their dad was leaving told me that they were grounded from tv and that we had to find something else to occupy their time. He leaves and the adventure begins.

Enter Max. Whose Max you ask? Well let me tell you about Max. Max is the rat tarrier owned by the family I am babysitting for. Max is very...hyper and even that sounds like to weak a word to descibe this dog. He jumps all over me, which I really didn't mind.

So there I am, and there the kids are and we are trying to find out what to do. So I make this brilliant idea to make a tent...they like the idea and ask how to make one. I was secretly hoping they knew, and when they asked how I quickly tried to figure out how and where to make one. We finally got one up...but it didn't work to well.

So then they decided to play "monster". Guess who was the monster. You guessed right folks...yours truly was the monster! It was fun...for the most part. After we finished "monster" we went out and sat on the sofa. Enter Max. Max jumps up on the sofa and starts licking my lips. That was DISGUSTING! I love dogs, don't get me wrong, but I don't love dogs kissing me, especially since a dogs mouth can have been anywhere! Thats just gross. So I finally untangle his face from mine and get him off the sofa, where he stays off.

Then we proceeded to play hide and go seek upon which the end of that game announced the arrival of daddy. I then came home and slept for a good 2-3 hours. It was great.

Now I sit here and wait for my brother to get off work at Denny's. He's a waiter there and a good one to boot. Tomorrow is his last night there before he heads for school next week. So tomorrow night my best friend and I are going to go over there and give him a hard time!!! =)

Well my computer is about to run outa battery. I should probably head off before it dies completley. Thats not good for your computer to do. So I'll see you all next time here at the Allegro! Thanks for stoppin by!

Life

Have you ever like, loved someone your entire life? I have, and its very hard to get over. I don't know...these past few days have been very blah. The real highlight of my week was going to the State Fair today with my best friend Beth, my lil bro, and my aunt. I got this really bad sunburn on my face. People at church tonight were like "dude, you got some sun". Then I had to break into the story of how I had been to the state fair and I was dumb enough not to put lotion on my face and all that jazz. Fun? No...cause now my face hurts, and everywhere I go people ask me why I am so red! Just call me a dumb blonde, and no, that is in no way, shape, or form me making fun of blondes. I am making fun of myself, thank you very much for asking.

So much to do and so little time in which to do it. I have college to get ready for. I need to work out...boy do I need to work out. Where's Joanna when you need her? She's my workout buddy. She gets me to do things i didn't know possible. Chinese pushups all the way!! =) And we can't forget those awesome crunches!! =) I think I will do that right now...yea...that sounds good. I want to loose weight so bad! I want to be healthy! I want to have no more problems!!! Go me!

HeHe!

I just got back from Music camp and boy was it a blast! I can't believe how much fun I had! It was a great week! I saw so many people that I knew and hadn't seen in a long time. I wish it had lasted longer. But all things must come to an end right? Right! So here I am...back at home and I have nothing to do. I could sleep, but that would throw me off for later, so I think I'll pass on that one. This last week was just so amazing! I don't even know how to describe it!! I hope that I can go back sometime and do it all again. Please keep me in your prayers as a situation has arisen and I need to make a major decision by Tuesday, actually make that Monday night. I would really appreciate it! Thanks!!

OH HAPPY DAY!

Oh happiness! I am so excited! I got a call this morning and guess what! I get to go to Music Camp!! They need me to be a counselor! =) I am so excited! It worked out!!! =) My aunt is going to be here in an hour or less! I am happy about that too! She and I are close, and I am glad that I get to see her. She is going to camp next week too! =) I am going to go now, cause things are getting a lil blurry...but I'll be back later!!

Yay...She's BACK!!

So today is a day on which to be very very excited! My best friend of 14 years has returned from China!! =) Yay! I am so glad that she made it back safe and sound! It sounds like she had a good time while she was there. We have a lot of catching up to do!

Last night one of the guy counselors from camp this summer showed up at my church! I was so excited to see him! It made me have happy good memories of camp! It was great! He is going to go canoeing with my church and I next Saturday.

This next Tuesday I am going to see Comedy of Errors with a lady from my church. Its our summer tradition. Usually mom comes along, but she's going to be at camp. How sad! =( Then the following week I am going to the state fair with my aunt and hopefully my best friend (the one mentioned above) is going to come with us...which reminds me I still need to ask her!

It's all good

So, I heard back from the lady in charge of camp, and she said that they are set for girl counselors. How sad. I guess I won't be going to camp after all. But thats ok. That means that I get to spend more time with Beth, Havi, and Amanda. I got an e-mail from one of my friends at camp today. I really really miss her and everybody else. It was great to hear from her, but it makes me remember camp, and it make me miss it a lot more. Oh well...at least there is e-mail and phones right?

Wait for it...

So I was talking to my friend Karen today, and she told me that Maranatha might need another counselor next week for music camp!! I e-mailed the lady in charge and told her that I would like to help with that if they need me!!! Oh I hope they let me do it! Please let me do it! I have been praying for a way to go, and this could be it! I am praying that it will work out! Oh I really hope it does work out! I want to go so bad! The Lord knows that I want to go, and I have prayed and asked Him to let this work out. It is now in His hands. Whatever His will, so be it! So today is one of those clean my room and get ready to go back to school days. I am ready to go back. I am ready for many reasons and I can't wait to just go!

Ohhhh! Before I forget Beth is returning from China today! HIP HIP HURRAY! I am sooo excited! I can't wait to see her again. Of course if I go to music camp, I leave her behind. But she should understand right? Right! lol. So when I find out whats going to happen I will let you know!!

Its 1:30 in the morning, and my body can't sleep. Why you ask? Well let me tell you. I was really tired and not feeling to well this afternoon, so I decided at 4 o'clock to lay down and take an nice 1/2 hour nap. Thats not what happened though. I ended up taking a 3 1/2 hour nap so now I am awake and can't sleep. Thankfully my body is starting to get tired. I really want to sleep but can't. So I have no idea what I am going to do tomorrow. I really need to start getting stuff ready to go back to school in the fall, but I am lazy and don't feel like doing that. Maybe I'll practice for the wedding...nah. I don't feel like that either. I really need a life, because I don't have one.