So we had missions conference here at MBBC this week. It was really really good. I couldn't believe how many mission boards we had here and stuff. It was really cool. Listening to all the missionaries tell about their needs too was cool as well. There is such a big mission field and I couldn't help but wonder if God was tugging on my heart to go to one of those places. I could definitely use my music on the mission field somewhere. I will go where ever God wants me, I just don't know where that will be.

School is going well. I have to go practice my violin tonight. Thats going to be fun. =) I have to have a song completely learned and memorized by the 21st of November. I can do it!! Other than that all is good. I am trying to learn many new instruments, one being the cello. Its ok...i guess...but I def. shouldn't quit my day job. Ask my roommate Lisa...she'll tell ya all about it!

Ok, so today I have been thinking about a lot of things. Sometimes I wonder why I am the way I am. I like to have fun, but sometimes I wonder if I can be to loud at times. I never thought I was too loud at Bob Jones. My friends didn't think so either. While I was there I was carefree (in a sense) and all this stuff and it was great. But now...I really wonder. Sometimes I act the same way here, and its not the same as it was at Bob Jones. Does this show that I am immature? I mean, I LOVE to have fun. At Bob Jones I would get crazy excited at soccer and basketball games. I would cheer for all I was worth for poor Omega. (ahhh...I miss them) But here, I'm not like that. I try to be, and it doesn't work. Is it just me? Have I changed so much that when I actually do try to have fun, I start to feel weird inside? Or is it something else? I really wish I knew. This post is really sappy or something...but I seriously wonder...what's going on with me?